because the heart never lies.

this happens every single time. i can never seem to make up my mind as to which i prefer- to stay here for good or go home (although i do not seem to have an option here but i still think of wild possibilities). theoretically speaking, going home would be best because it means getting my life back in order, how it should be, and everything functions just like how it used to.
here’s the problem, i never liked routine and order, and there isn’t a good enough reason to wanna be home, at least not for now.

we’re always afraid to speak our minds because we are afraid of the consequences of those words we let slip. we’re afraid to act upon our desires for fear of rejection and judgment. in the end, we all play this sick little pretentious game. let’s just all be real and show how we feel and speak our minds shall we?

i would be lying if i said i wasn’t disappointed with myself last wednesday. i know very well what i am capable of but i guess i allowed fear to take over. this new set list is going to be radical and i need to get a grippppp. 

also, it was really heartwarming to see people come specially to watch me even when they’re so caught up with finals. it’s even cooler that people i never expected to come actually did- a partial faith in humanity is restored. :) 

it’s painful to watch people leave- both friends you’ve known for many years and friends you’ve just made (because they never stay long enough to know you). you know its time to let them go when you’ve tried your best to keep them. we can’t keep those who are eager to leave.